Saturday 15 July 2017

Sorry I lied

Sorry I lied :



I never really lie… I just, it’s just that sometime it is just too much to handle. I’m sorry I lied to you when I said I didn’t love you. I’m sorry I lied when I said I wanted to come, when. Actually I’m just lazy and want to be me.

I’m sorry I lied  when you ask me : ‘do you have feelings for me?’
I knew you’d say you did not had any for me, so I lied.
But, maybe you lied to? Maybe you’re just afraid of us?
And I know I said I didn’t had feelings for you, but… I do, I do love you.

The way you wanted me to stay when I came to your apartment.. But you let me go because you were too shy to tell me. The way you asked me to come and met you because there was no way you wouldn’t see me that day because you felt bad that week. The way you asked me ‘did you missed me’ in-between kiss, in-between water splash and your cat.
You wanted me there… Did you? Or did you lie too? Was it just to have me for the good will, because you knew, you knew I’d fall in love with you.



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I’m sorry I lied, when you asked me : ‘was it too much? Did I gave you too much’
And I said no, cause I knew you’d never have feeling for me, but I still wanted to keep you just a little closer to me.. Just a little close to me. Please forgive me. I know I said I didn’t had feelings for you, but… I do, I do love you.
The way you old me, the way you put your hand on my thigh when were at the Basilica. The way you old my hand as the show, and the way you looked at me: ‘when I say something I mean it’. Did you really mean it? Everything you say, do you always really mean what you say?
‘one day. When we will be together, there will only be you’
‘hey, now that you are single; do you want to go out with me?’
I remember, I do remember everything you told me.. Do you? Or did you lie too? Was it just to impress me, because you knew, you knew I’d fall in love you.


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I’m sorry I lied everytime I said that I was ok, when really, I wasn’t. But maybe it’s actually my fault, maybe I’m just, failing in love again and again, with the wrong guy, going into a relationship with the wrong mindset
How come that you not love me.
How come that you not love me?

It’s actually funny, how both of you never realize how much you look alike, same name, same attitude… Same way to play the game.

I’m sorry I lied but, I was just trying to protect myself.



IzzieJH xx.